La La Lah

 

Today I have stopped drinking coffee
mostly because of how it mocks me
making me think of you-
back talking
living as if being renewed
I walk in feeling sober
in the afternoon
wandering like an f double o
like you knew
like you knew I wouldn't dare
to leave you yeah like cigarettes,
cigars, or cannabis perfumes.

I need to listen to what God is saying
this early in the evening with the sunset
fading out of yellow hatred sitting on a
pink horizon.

My eyes tell me what I am right?
So why can't I comprehend what I
feel like?

As if the only real me is in day light
out of all these midnight fading star signs
and the gossip of how I act like.

So I leave this coffee with my heart fighting
hard about what I want in real life.

I sober my emotions when I hold your hand tight.

I feel on my own whether that you hear my
soul speaking on its own
like...
                -V I L L A N U E V A

08.18.21